I woke up on Friday morning of last week to a day that was fully planned before I got out of bed. I had much to do that day, so it was important that I stayed on schedule if I was to get everything done. I did a few things on the computer, made some calls, dressed, and headed out to meet a friend for lunch. I showed up at the restaurant. She didn’t. Apparently we mixed up the time.
I was a bit irritated when it became clear that my lunch for two would be a lunch for one. The list of all of the things that I could have been doing ran through my mind. Then I remembered one of my earlier posts, Estimated Time Of Arrival, in which I talked about unexpected detours and the value of looking for hidden opportunities in them. This was one of those glitches. Something that was annoying, but not life altering. I realized at that moment that I could either take the circumstances in stride and try to find a way to still enjoy the moment at hand, or I could be upset and let the situation set a negative tone for the rest of my day.
I decided to follow my own advice and look for treasure in the unexpected change of plan. I didn’t have to dig too deeply to uncover a gem. I was alone, but I was at one of my favorite Tex-Mex restaurants. I got over my fear of dining alone years ago, so there was no reason for me not to eat. I was hungry and already at the restaurant. I had a good table with a great view to a lovely day outside. I decided to have lunch after all, even if it was lunch by myself.
I ordered fish tacos. They were prepared to perfection. I savored every morsel. My dining experience lulled me into a state of relaxation. After I finished my lunch, I decided to take a stroll and explore the enclave of small shops that surrounded the restaurant instead of rushing to my next stop
I uncovered a jewel of a stationery shop that carries my favorite line of journals. A little farther down the walkway I stumbled upon a small independent chocolate shop where they still make chocolate by hand on site. A few yards away a small pond shaded by trees beckoned me. A couples of pieces of chocolate later I answered the call and headed toward the water. I found the nearest bench and sat down to enjoy the light breeze that stirred. After a few more pieces of chocolate I walked back to my car. I could not help but to think what a wonderful day it was.
Sure, I would have enjoyed catching up with my friend, but I had a great time catching up with me. I don’t remember the last time that I took an afternoon to check in with myself to see how I’m doing. It was time well spent. That afternoon set the tone for the rest of my day, and it carried over into my weekend. I had one of the most peaceful weekends that I have had in a long time.
The glitch in my plan reminded me that I’m not in control at all times. I would like to say that I’m always comfortable when I encounter situations that are beyond my control, but the truth is that I’m challenged in this area at times. I understand the concept of letting go and letting God be God, but living by faith is sometimes a challenge for me. I confess that at times I was uncomfortable with some of the paths that God led me down. My discomfort was due to the fact I could not see the end point, and I like to know where I’m going. But that’s what faith is about–believing and trusting even when we can not see the end.
The truth is that God has never failed me. He has always guided me to a better destination than I could have planned for myself. My ability is limited. God’s ability is limitless. I don’t know about you, but I would rather have someone with infinite power and ability navigating the ship that is my life.
One of my favorite scriptures is “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” (Proverbs 3:4-5 NKJV). I read these words often. I just have to remember to live them.
Are there times when you wonder what is going on in your life, or who is in control? How do you respond? With faith or doubt? Maybe a little trust is in order.
“As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.” ~ Emmanuel Teney